Stained Monochrome Wings

Tonight, Tonight, To-marrow

07-24-13

Digging myself a grave

in my scarred arms,

with a R.I.P. stone

screaming 'Self-Mutilation'.

High hopes of a homicide-suicide

Tonight, Tonight.

Every day's a different tale,

I was told as a child.

Every person has problems

and exes.

And exes.

But Tonight, To...

Killer Queen

05-01-13

Only three more months of playing Cinderella.

Then, my Killer Queen, you shall see

how worthless your Kingdom becomes without me.

Step down from the throne,

hold back your tongue,

stop the frequent indulgences

of pointless past-times.

Killer Queen, you're murdering me.

Into The New Realm

03-19-13

Am I about to die

or am I just high?

Pumping feeling in my chest,

cutting out all the rest.

Head like a fucking hammer,

make everything inside clamor.

Shutting down,

realms turn to brown

to cyan, neon, gold,

my brain is mold

as I watch it flash

my nerves begin to thrash.

If Eyes are the Doorway to the Soul, I'm Surely Fucked

05-19-12 (revision 12-29-15)

My vision obscured

twisted and anamorphosed,

and controlled by this pane glass wall.

Limited in soul,

because of this small square;

true beauty lurking

hiding

behind these panes

sealing my soul,

smudged vision, a blurred soul.

The window to my heart,

forever obscured and blocked off

behind these spectac...

Perfect Imperfection

05-19-11

I say

I don't care

about what others

think of my presence

of the aloof way I carry myself,

of the way I speak,

or of the way I always seem to

always be avoiding the topic.

I feel

I'm unable to take the wheel

to control this urge to

be tangible, to

crave perfection.

I don't care

though it is a li...

Unwanted Misfits

01-07-12 (revised 12-29-15)

Some love, words to give pride

all that’s wanted is something real and tangible;

painless though secure

Breathe your malice into me

to take, divide and conquer

pasted to the wall, set as this catalysis.

Unwanted misfit; pour all this useless soul

onto paper, and form into something

intangible however fragile.

Panacea

01-05-12

Her anatomy like ambrosia,

even when

hiding her hips,

concealing her curves.

This butch beauty

stowing away her outward appearance

Feasibly fish-headed

going, wondering mind, gone;

surrogated sporadically,

however contingent

veritably tolerant quintessence:

My prone panacea

A Barren Heart

03-31-13

Frigid as a winter’s night,

You sacrificed our love yet

mine for you burns like summer,

though I await spring;

the transitions, the changes.

Maybe then I can transformation

these feelings.

Your winter’s worries

chilled the roses,

the red, the yellow, the pink.

They’re all dead.

A desolate barren heart

covered over by y...

Expired

03-20-13

At one point I was your beau,

my expiration date has past

and now I have to go.

Chop it up,

this fragile heart,

fucked up from the start.

The somber

tick tock

of the clock

a murky hour-hand;

stiffly counting seconds.

It’s fragmented and distorted.

Emotionally Disturbed

02-10-13

I'll never be good enough for you.

I'll just be this empty piece of emotionally and mentally disturbed piece of shit that lives with you.

And I'll never amount to anything more than just that.

No matter how much I do to distract myself from my home life,

I'll never be able to get how you see me out of my self-conscious.

But I'm supposed to hate you? The vile bloody fucking wench that...